The Curious Incident of the Dog in the night-time, Harry Potter Series, Angels and Demons, The Da Vinci Code, Deception Point, The Alchemist, Blink, Me Talk Pretty One Day,
TV Shows I Like:
Ugly Betty, Brothers and Sisters, Heroes, Grey's Anatomy, House, Scrubs, Desperate Housewives, Friends, Queer As Folk, Will & Grace, Just Shoot Me, CSI, CSI: Miami, SNL
I just want to find that someone who can make me feel needed and wanted, while at the same time make me want and need him. I want to find that someone who can shut me up with a kiss whenever I go on rambling and talking relentlessly. I want to find that someone who can laugh at me and laugh with me. I want to find that someone who can tell me pointblank and in an in-your-face manner that I am wrong, if I ever am. I want to find that someone with whom I can face each and everyday with hope and a wanting for a brighter day ahead. And I just want to find that someone who, without any explanation, or beyond reason, can look me in the eye and tell me he loves me... (or that I am a jerk, if this need ever arises).
If you get bored easily with a hell of a lot of text, then you might wanna skip this. I talk a lot and I often speak my mind. I can be very shallow and extremely deep when it comes to conversations. I can talk about anything and everything under the sun (sometimes I make sense, sometimes I don't.)
I have the tendency to want to be needed. Sometimes, I have the "Savior" complex. I just want to save the world, or at the very least, people. (But we all know this is not possible)
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I am a man who:
*loves a good laugh
*is kept alive by humor
*believes that everything happens for a reason.
*people pleaser
*loves subjecting self to martyrdom
*smokes.
*can be a snob.but can be friendly at the same time.
*at times is a loner. but blends in with any group of people.
*loves coffee
*has no regrets in life
[Note: Like Gibbs and CC, I also forgot to sign up for the collective blogging event. I was planning to sign up and begin writing my post, but I was stuck in Pililla, Rizal during the long weekend - without Internet for three days! So here I am, posting about my coming out story. Better late than pregnant, I guess.]
I took 5 days of Vacation Leave from work. I booked a trip to Davao to spend Christmas with my family. I somehow am already tired of family gatherings and parties, but this year, I wanted to go back home and tell my parents who I really am.
The days before Christmas Eve were extremely long as I was spending time with old friends, catching up on our lives. All those days were extremely longer as I was looking for a window of opportunity to come out to my folks.
Coming out is not easy. And you can never be too prepared.
We ate dinner around 8PM and I decided to go back up to my room. I just wanted to lie down, watch TV and wait for midnight. (I guess I’m too old for Christmas. I don’t really feel that sort of excitement children have – waiting for midnight to open the gifts up, then go out and play with other children.) Midnight came and went, but I was asleep. I did not get to do the traditional Christmas Midnight Noche Buena. But it did not matter.
When I got up, I carefully planned in my mind how I would tell my folks about me. Everytime I came out to someone, I made sure I broke it to them gently.
Since it was the 25th of December and the Metro Manila Film Festival Philippines already started, I quickly came up with a grand plan.
Mano Po 4: Ako Legal Wife was the only movie I planned on watching during this season’s film fest. I knew that there existed a character named Hamilton Chong (played by John Prats), a closeted gay man. This, I knew, should set the pace for me.
After the film, I brought them to Blugre Cafe (there is no Starbucks in Davao, and Blugre is the next best thing). My older brother and I brought our laptops and did some stuff for work there. The cafe had free wifi access (yes there is wifi in Davao!).
I was chatting with my boyfriend [insert ex's name] over ym. Then I went on to open his friendster account and view his pictures. My mom was curiously looking at my monitor. Then she asked who were in the pictures. “My Friends”, I quipped.
Less than five minutes later, I showed her one of Ex-boyfriend’s pix and told her that the guy was my “uyab”. Uyab is the bisaya androgynous term for BF/GF/Lover, just like the Filipino NOBYO and KASINTAHAN.
“That’s a guy.”
“Yes, he is a guy. His name’s [insert ex's name] and he’s currently in New York.”
“So you’re gay?”
“Yes, I am.”
smiles
“There he is.” I then clicked on Ex-boyfriend’s webcam window
Mom pinches my cheeks, smiling
It was that simple. No complications. She asked me a lot of questions about my bf and my life and about the “close friend” I always hung out with some two to three years ago. I told her that yes, HE was my boyfriend. Then she dropped her bomb.
“Oh, I see. I knew it.”
Then she went on smiling. My mom wears her heart on her sleeve, and I knew that she was happy. She still is. My brothers who were there just looked at HAN’s pics. My brother then made this funny remark: “So, naglaladlad ka na pala. Parang Ako Legal Wife.” Something of that sort. We all laughed.
And that was the end of it.
I am OUT and Proud.
I just wish it was THIS easy for everyone of us. I guess I’m just lucky that I have a family like mine. We may not be emotionally open amongst ourselves, but we sure stand by each other through thick and thin.
A device for determining the contractions of an anal sphincter and associated muscles comprising a core formed in a generally cylindrical configuration from a relatively rigid plastic material having a central distl end and a proximal end, the core having a central section of a reduced diameter and an axial length, sheet material formed of a flexible essentially inelastic plastic material with an adhesive securing the sheet material to the core and a head adjacent to the distal end of the core, the proximal end of the head being located adjacent to the distal end of the central section and with the distal end of the head being of a reduced diameter.
This is a patent registered with the United States Patent Office back in 1998. I don’t know if any product was actually manufactured, but this sure is quite interesting.
Sa susunod na buwan ay magkakaroon ng bonggang-bonggang baklaan sa Cebu! Ang mga FabCasters (Migs the Manila Gay Guy, McVie, Gibbs Cadiz, Tony Lobster, Corporate Closet at Baklitang AJ) at si E ay rarampa sa Cebu mula ika-11 hanggang sa ika-13 ng Setyembre.
Among gina-agda ang tanang mga higala nato sa sangkabayotan sa Cebu na mutungha sa launch sa Threesome: Books to Break the Rules!
So sa tanang bayot dinha sa Cebu, magkita-kita ra gyud ta!
And you thought he was just another parloristang bakla (not that there’s anything wrong with that).
Fanny Serrano proves that there’s more to him than what people think. We’ve already seen him display his acting prowess once or twice on TV. (Unfortunately for me, I was not able to see the indie film “Tulak” which got him a nomination to the PMPC Star Awards for movies.). Tita Fanny will once again showcase his acting skills in the upcoming indie film “Tarima”.
In Tarima, he plays a selfless gay man:
“…he plays a selfless gay soltero who adopted wayward youths whose lives,despite the unconditional love he has showered on them, went wrong. I
n the movie written and directed by Neal Tan, Fanny gets entangled once more with low lives, but this time in a correctional facility, specifically in what seems to be an innocent provision for conjugal visits called ‘tarima’.”
This is the so-called “love nest” wherein inmates and their visitors are allowed to have intimate sexual encounters for hours or even days. In the “love nest”, inmates occasionally give vent to suppressed sexual desires with their partners who could either be their wives, girlfriends or even gay lovers.
Tarima also stars Ms. Gloria Romero and Prof. Rustica Carpio, Rocky Salumbides, Raymond Cabral, Chokoleit, Ana Capri, Oskar Peralta, Tia Pusit and Rap-Rap Leuterio.
“Tarima” will premiere on Aug. 28 at the CCP Main Theater.Similar Posts:
Gay men all over the world are excited for this year’s most-awaited event: the Miss Universe 2010 pageant! I’m pretty sure many gay men in the Philippines will take a vacation leave, call in sick, or secretly watch online from their office computers. And they have reason enough to do so: this year’s competition seems more promising and more interesting than the previous years’ pageants.
Even though I still prefer the pre-Trump days of the pageant, I’m still looking forward to this year’s competition. Thanks to the representative from the Philippines, Maria Venus Raj!
So much hype has been given to Venus Raj and this year’s Miss Universe – owing to the fact that she was dethroned and then later on re-throned (may ganun bang term?)!
Like any other former contestant from the Philippines, Venus Raj is leading the online polls over at MissUniverse.com. How surprising! Not.
But even if Venus does win Miss Photogenic or whatever the winner of the online poll will receive, I’m still rooting for her. Beauty pageant websites have Venus on their leaderboards as one of the top contenders for the crown this year. And I agree with them.
Oh and did I mention that Venus has recently won the chicken wing-eating contest in Las Vegas weeks prior to the coronation night?
One trivia about Venus Raj: Prior to her joining the Binibining Pilipinas 2010 pageant, Venus actually already won a title – Miss Philippines Eco-Tourism 2008. This is equivalent to fourth-runner up in the Miss Philippines Earth competition where she represented the city of Legazpi.
“MULI (The Affair)” and “MAGDAMAG”, both written by Jerry Gracio, will have a back-to-back screening at the U.P. Cine Adarna (Film Center) on Friday, August 13.
Before the screening of MULI at 9p.m., there will be a forum to discuss the film.Tickets at P120@, P200 if you’re watching the two films.
Sponsored by the UP Cinema in cooperation with the UP Film Center. For tickets contact 0905-2907989, 0908-5724737.”Similar Posts:
“Games, changes and fears. When will they go from here? When will they stop?”
– Macy Gray (I Try)
These lines from Macy Gray’s I Try reflect my life these past few weeks. I deliberately put my social life on hold because of these things. I’ve been playing games, dealing with changes and facing my fears.
It’s typhoon season and we know what that means – heavy rains! The only thing I love about heavy rains is that I can sleep more soundly and longer. I used to stay up all day all night during weekends, with very limited amounts of sleep. Thanks to the bed weather brought in by the rains, I get more sleep. That’s a major change for me. Seventy-five percent of my weekends are spent sleeping, waking up just to pee or eat (while playing Facebook Games).
I’m facing some of my fears too. Heavy rains can cause flooding, and even if the area I live in doesn’t really get flooded, except for that one time during Ondoy. I fear that if something like that ever happens again, I would be unprepared. So I have been stocking up on some supplies which would definitely help me and my family face another disaster like that.
And finally, aside from sleeping, I have been very busy – playing online games. I’ve recently become addicted to Facebook games such as Hotel City, Social City and Millionaire City. I’m not really good at them, but I try.
Aside from the games on Facebook, I also play two other games online: Twist, Lick and Dunk and Bonding on the Share OREO website.
These games are surprisingly addicting! They may look easy, but boy are they super challenging!
Twist, Lick and Dunk
How to Play:
1. Drag the Twist, Lick and Dunk blocks to the boxes marked with a question mark (?).
2. Press the “OK!” button when you’re done.
3. When the OREO hits the Dunk block, an arrow will appear. This arrow will follow the direction of your mouse. Move your mouse to the desired direction and press the spacebar key.
4. If you shoot wrong and find yourself stuck, click the “Restart Level” button.
5. Each time you restart a level, you lose one OREO. The number of OREOs you have is the number of chances you have.
6. There is P5 coin on each level of the game. Getting the coin gives you two additional OREOs.
Bonding
No, this is not bondage, it’s Bonding! The goal of this OREO Bonding games is to get the mother and the son to bond.
All you need to do is to drag objects in the kitchen to the mother and the son. Find the correct objects to drag to make them sit at the table and eat OREOs!
The good thing about these OREO games is that I can actually get something out of it. Once you clear certain levels of the games, you will get a coupon for a FREE Snack Pack from OREO!
Seems pretty easy right? Now try these yourself on the Share OREO website and tell me if it really is that easy.
In 2007, I blogged about openly gay (and white) rapper Cazwell. The post was about Cazwell and his controversial video “All Over Your Face” which was banned on MTV. The dirty version of that video is also in the blog post.
After posting that, and after fantasizing about Cazwell shooting his load all over my face, I have never really heard much about him. There were a few news stories here and there but they were quite blah.
And in Ice Cream Truck, his recently released video, Cazwell might as well shoot all over my face for real while I lick him. Errr, his ice cream. This video is so hot it will give you precum! Did I mention the cum-inducing hot men clad in skimpy underwear? Choz Mabalos sa indo gabos.
Wanna know what I’m talking about? Watch the video and enjoy! Now excuse me while I wipe my buckets of drool.
We all have our cab driver horror stories and they’re definitely worth sharing. But if all cab drivers here in the Philippines are like these two American taxi drivers (aka public transport operators), then we sure will have a better country. Choz.
Now seriously, if taxi drivers here was as cool and hot and yummy as these two, then life would be heavenly. I would ride them and let them ride me, I mean, I would ride their cab and hire them until eternity. Charing
Turock (aka Tory) and Jason have been running their taxi in the philippines for the past year. Jason and Tory have been doing odd jobs in the philippines over the past 7 years and have decided to start a video series to honor the Filipinos!
They both lost Jobs in the USA and picked up and moved to the Philippines to look for jobs. Jobs in the Philippines are scarce but starting a taxi service made sense.
This is a video of their very first run almost one year ago. They are running a taxi in the province of Isabela thru to Cagayan. Their route starts in Santiago and makes stops in Alicia, Cauayan, Ilagan, Tuguegarao. They only charge 30PHP per trip, MAY AIR CON PA!
So the next time you are in Isabela sana sumakay kayo sa taxi nina Jason ni Tory. they can be contacted via Twitter.
Safe, Proud and Queer is an event organized by RockEd Philippines and presented by the Department of Health, Philippine NGO Council on Popultion, Health and Welfare Inc. (PNGOC), and Queeriosity. Yes, you read that last bit right, Queeriosity the bath house.
Safe, Proud and Queer is part of The Safety Series, The Philippines Fighting HIV - a series of events that are held around the metro to promote awareness through entertaining performances to the MSM (men who have sex with other men) community. And Queeriosity is the first and only bathhouse to participate in this endeavor.
On July 26, Monday, join Tsoknut and Q’s sexy male models for a night of awareness and entertainment, PLUS free drinks, great music and so much more! So if you want to learn more about HIV while having fun, head to Q on July 26! Visit the website of Queeriosity Palace for the location information.
Q opens from 6pm-2am but the show starts at 9.30pm
The Safety Series is an aggressive campaign fighting HIV in the Philippines. Welcome to the fight. Choose safety.
I’ve been single for close to two years now and I don’t really mind. At our last FabCaster’s Midyear Soju Party, Migs, the Manila Gay Guy asked me how I was doing and how single life was treating me. Like I do to every person who asks me this question, I said I’m okay. I used to say I’m doing great, but I wanted to stop lying and telling people that I’m doing fantabulously great when the reality is that I’m just okay. I can’t complain.
My many years of singlehood and in my emo crap years (hello 2004 to 2007), have taught me to be strong and probably turned me into an ornamental stone. Yes, I will admit that I have become jaded. Yes, I am now a metamorphic rock. But that does not mean I am unhappy. That also does not mean I am happy. I’m just me. I’m living in the moment.
Recently, I realized that I have not actually moved on completely from my breakup with my most recent (read: not so recent) ex, until recently (about a month or so ago). I never told anyone this but a year and a half after we broke up, I still found myself missing him. There were times that I missed him so much I would cry while watching something funny on TV. Sometimes, I would sit at my desk at work, doing my shit; then all of a sudden and out of nowhere, I would sob silently and my mascara would smudge and drip on my cheeks – all because I missed him. Who said anything about moving on? Choz.
So yeah, a month or so ago, I issued a cease and desist order for myself. Emo crap is crap. I don’t know what happened, but I finally felt like I have moved on completely. Suddenly, he was no longer part of my everyday thoughts (he used to be a mainstay in my wandering mind), even if I have lots of stuff at home that reminded me of him. Now, I only think of him whenever I see his updates on my Facebook news wall – no more tingles and no more excited tinggil. I’m free! Ching.
Before going to sleep yesterday, I stumbled into my secret, personal, and long-forgotten blog (which is full of my emo crap)! I completely forgot that my emo blog existed! One of the entries there made me smile. The way I felt after reading it now is totally different from the way I felt when I wrote the entry. Kaloka.
And here’s the part where I bore you with content from my super-secret-personal-emo-crap blog:
The Breakup
Wednesday, December 24, 2008.
While it may seem like a very easy arrangement, it wasn’t. My boyfriend, I mean ex-boyfriend, and I broke up because he had to go back to his country. We both decided that it would be best for the both of us to just break up instead of pursuing a long distance relationship (LDR).
I found out about his plans of leaving (not only me, but also everything we had and everything he had here) months before the supposed date. I cried myself to sleep, I cried in the shower, I cried whenever I got the chance to be alone.
I was psyching myself up, preparing myself for the days ahead. Preparing for doom.
No one can really be prepared for a planned breakup – this I realized the hard way. I did everything I could to make myself believe that I was ready for it. That I was prepared for what may come.
Secretly though, I yearned for him to change his plans. I hoped against all hope that he would change his mind. I wished he would look back in the not so distant past and think of the plans that we have made for our future – our future together.
But he didn’t. And the days leading to his departure started creeping in like an expected thief in the night. The cancer of departure and separation had come to kill my cells and affect everything around me. In the last few days before what I called “the death of me,” I wailed in front of him. Tears flowed incessantly. I couldn’t cry when I was alone, I could only cry whenever I was in front of him.
And on the day of his departure, I – the faithful departed – put on a strong face. I did not cry. I was the controlling bitch that I was. I made sure everything was in place and that he did not have to go through some unexpected issues at the airport. I promised him I would come and visit him in a few months, no matter what the circumstances of my life or his life were.
Off he went. I saw him enter the airport’s pre-departure area. That was the last time I saw him. I did not cry, yet.
Pinoy gay lingo is constantly evolving. So many new words are sprouting everyday that sometimes, it’s difficult to catch up. In 2007, I wrote about Pinoy Gayspeak 101, a not-so-comprehensive (with Pinoy gayspeak, I don’t think an ultra-comprehensive guide is possible, but I may be wrong) guide to basic Pinoy gayspeak.
There is one site though, that helps a lot: DIKSYUNARYONG BECKY. Then again, some of the terminology there may now be outdated.
Recently, with the growing number of people subscribing to social media (Twitter, Facebook, Plurk, etc.) and with more and more celebrities joining the bandwagon, more gay words have sprung up. What’s interesting is that these are used not only by gay men, but also by almost everyone! I find it funny whenever celebrities use such gay words in their Tweets. What I find more hilarious is when celebrities use other celebrities’ names in gay lingo. The etymology of these words have not been verified but most of these are used because of similar sounds to the original words.
So without further ado, here’s a list of Celebrity Names used in Pinoy Gay Lingo! So brush up on your Pinoy Gay Lingo and join the fun! (Some of these names I just invented and came up with on my own – and only known to me, but most of these are pretty much out there in the social media world).
Baklita Corrales – gay guy in his teens; young gay guy
Bitter Ocampo – Bitter; sad
Bottom Araullo – bottom
Cabella Flores – cab; taxi
Carmi Martin/Carmina Villaroel – Karma
Chanda Romero – Tiyan; tummy; stomach
Charice – Char!
Charotlot de Leon – charot! Char lang! meaningless expression
Chenelyn Mercado – Chenes
Chos Groban – from etchos
Curious Babao – Curious
Curious Babao – Curious
Done Zulueta – Tapos na; Finished
Gelli de Belen – Jealous
Haggardina Bonnevie – same as Haggardo Versoza – haggard and lady guard
Haggardo Versoza – haggard, exhausted; can also mean Security Guard
Imbyernadette Sembrano or Imbyernadette Allyson – imbyerna; inis; asar
Purita Kalaw-Ledesma/Pura Kalaw /PuRita Avila – mahirap; poor; walang pera
Raymond Gutierrez – Busog (dahil Raymond looks busog all the time)
Stress Drilon – stressed
Tom Jones – Tomguts or gutom (hungry)
I’m pretty sure there are millions of other versions of these and if you have them, please do post them here! (I’m coming up with a contest related to this in the next few weeks!) It is actually pretty easy to come up with your own versions of these celebrity names in gay lingo. All you need to do is think of a celebrity whose name can be used either as a “prefix” or a “suffix” of a word. You don’t even have to be gay to do this!Similar Posts:
I’m pretty sure you’ve already seen and drooled over the photos from the Bench Uncut underwear fashion show. And I’m pretty sure many people were not really interested in what the esteemed designers came up with for the event. I didn’t get to watch the fashion show but if I did the only reason would be to see models and celebrities show some skin. Or lots of skin.
The Bench Uncut show this year featured new TV personalities, seasoned models and actors, and well, has-beens. But the biggest and most controversial part of the Bench Uncut underwear show is… JAKE CUENCA showing his ass!
Please stop sending me invites to “Get your free iPad” or “Get your free iPhone 4″ because they’re so annoying. Unless you have actually received these so-called giveaways for real, I implore you to please not include me in those invites. My real friends do not allow themselves to be fooled by these.
The next person who sends me an invite of such nature will be deleted – no matter who you are or how close we are.
Thanks,
AJ (who still doesn’t have an iPad, an iPhone 3gs and an iPhone 4)
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“…he plays a selfless gay soltero who adopted wayward youths whose lives,despite the unconditional love he has showered on them, went wrong. I
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