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• 80's Party (11/4/09) [View | Hide]

  haha love it.

• (11/4/09) [View | Hide]

  OK, dont get my wrong, I l-o-v-e my days off. but for heavens sake Im BOREEEEEDDDDD. Im also kinda sick, which makes me really not want to leave my apartment. Granted even if I did leave there isnt alot to do.... Cant wait for Kurt to come!!! a week and a half!!! 500th performance of Zaia with Guy Laliberte next week. Kinda wish my apartment had better circulation cause spraypainting inside is not always the greatest things for the body. haha

• Pirate ship! (11/2/09) [View | Hide]

  Halloween was fun. I spent three days with Danica and Sam making costumes, and then decided I was too tired to go out anyways so I didnt. I watched movies with Gabriel haha. Sam and Danica didnt even end up going out either. Also they tried to trick me into thinking someone stole my costume, since it was sitting in their hall way, which worked, and I was kinda relieved that I wouldnt have to deal with it, but then Gareth blew the cover, and I guess that someone just put it in the fire escape and they didnt find it for a while haha. Tomorrow is Colleen's last day at work and after... VENETIEN SUITE PARTY BABY! Cant wait. Kurt is coming two weeks from today! I cant wait!!!

• (9/28/09) [View | Hide]

  I think Im insomniatic. I havent fallen asleep earlier then like 4am in the past week or more. FML.

• <3 (8/31/09) [View | Hide]

  For all the peeps who read this blog... I've started another blog for me being in Macau, the Show, pics and stuff from stuff Im doing here in Macau Check it out http://thomasrhys.blogspot.com/

• OI oi (8/3/09) [View | Hide]

  Its been a while since I've posted. Work has been good. FIxation was a bit hectic. But things are good. Today is Gabriels birthday, and mine in a week! So party on Wednesday :)  Then HK next week during the 3 day dark, and Japan in September! Today is like the first day in a while were I've been ok with being REALLY bored. Its been nice. I dont know what else to say... Last night Simon made a wonderful dinner for me and Jenn and Gabriel. It was delish. Umm. ok, gotta go to work.

• Parachutes. (7/12/09) [View | Hide]

  I feel like Charlotte when she goes up to Harry and then Harry proposes to her. The one where she is basically like... "I dont care if you ever marry me, but could just like... call me ever now and then to let me know how you are doing? (all while crying"  to Harry. I feel like that. except in the SATC universe Harry says "well thats just not good enough" and proposes. Im not sure if my universe will have parallel outcomes... although I suppose I can just keep dreaming. Work is going well, Although Im still waiting for my new costume! Everyone seems to have a birthday in August. There is a 3 days that we have off on my birthday and so I think we will plan to go somewhere for a few days? who knows Im going to Japan in September for a week with alot of the people here. Osaka, then Tokyo, to see Corteo, then Zed. Cant wait. Sasha is coming in December then we will hopefully travel for 2 weeks in January... phillipines? vietnam? cambodia? malaysia? Australia? Who knows. I miss home alot. I cried alot yesterday talking to my sister, AT WORK. yeah. I think it was the first time I had cried about her since I was 14, so its been a long time coming. I miss you all. Kurt you especially I think. <3 <3 <3 ps dont you hate it when people ask how you are and you know they know that you aren't "good" but you just cant tell them whats wrong?  I hate that.

• Thai (7/5/09) [View | Hide]

  So I should be Sleeping right now cause I have to get up early for my FLIGHT TO THAILAND TOMORROW!!! we have four days off and Jennifer, Gabriel and I are heading to ko phi phi islands in Thailand! I cant wait. I've been needing a break. I know that I've only been here like a month but I havent had like a BREAK since probably March when I was in in NY. Cant wait to lay on the beach, hike and snorkle and take in Thailand!! Also, When I get back I will be in my NEW APARTMENT with simon!!! I cant wait, its a great big 3 bedroom brandnew. AND we have MOVERS!!! so I dont have to move any of my suitcases!!! YAY August is coming which means my birthday as well as coinsidentaly a zillion peoples birthday as well so Im sure we will have a HUGE party for all of us. Then LADY GAGA IS COMING TO MACAU AHHHHHHh ANd September I want to go to JAPAN!!!! WHAAAAAAAAA I really want to go diving and I miss it. KURTS TATTOO IS AMAZING I love it! Umm. Ok going to bed. Ill be pretty MIA till Friday. Need some wheening from the computer, so not takin her with me. which will be some good detox. <3

• (7/4/09) [View | Hide]

  I really need to go grocery shopping, and am being really lazy about it. Two shows today, then the Hardrock pool party, two shows tomorrow night, Then THAILAND MONDAY-THURSDAY with Jenn and Gabriel!!! Fuck I cant wait. Also new apartment when I come back! Cant wait to finally be settled in. Oh and lady gaga is coming here, so that could be fun. <3

• Dancing to High School Musical (6/30/09) [View | Hide]

  basically, im just now sobering up... and I started drinking yesterday at 1pm. Kurt and Tara Reid would be proud. basically, impromptu trip to Disneyland HK yesterday, LOTS of beer involved. Then gay bar afterwards. Gareth and I danced in the High School Musical show. As well as Stitch's parade, which we played volleyball in. fallowed by dancing at Volume and MANY rounds of beers... and then a 4am ferry back to Macau. I dont remember getting off the ferry, going through immigrations, then getting in the taxi, which is when I realized I was with Gareth and his friend, so I made the cab stop so we could wait for them. HAHA. I need to go back to sleep before work. Goodnight.. <3 miss you kurtesy

• Mother (6/28/09) [View | Hide]

  My mother just requested to be my friends on facebook. What do I do!!?? There's gotta be some kinda of protocol for this, RIGHT? Do I add, and perhaps have her think Im a drunk and skank (which Kurt eagerly think I am {thanks bitch}) or do I deny her and than talk to her this week and listen to her whiney voice asking why I didnt add her.... DENY DENY DENY! Yeah no. not adding her. I love her. but not that much. <3 Ps. more apartment searching today!

• (6/25/09) [View | Hide]

  I just had a dream that I had to go back to high school and it was REALLY hard, and all the teachers were huge bitches. Ugh, that was weird.

• (6/24/09) [View | Hide]

  Ani Difranco, You never cease to amaze me. Working 6 days a week is hard. eff. I still need to find a apartment. I've seen at least 20 apartments and used at least , some gross, some amazing and too expensive, and some just eh.. but it will come! omg.. and I just started watching Ru Pauls Drag Race and its amazing and SO addicting.

• China. (6/12/09) [View | Hide]

  I totally just wrote alot then hit a bad button and it all deleted. Shitballz USA. China is pretty cool. I like the difference of culture, it makes me appreciate mine more. Also I think Ive been away from my own personal culture for so long that coming here hasnt been that much of a shock, or at least a lot less then normal. I went to the immigrations center today, which was definitely a experience I wont forget. So first off, I was supposed to go with one of the ladies in the office, but then they sent me alone, to meet someone, so I was like oh shit. I get there, and as soon as I get out of the car a big van pulls behind me and around 14 azians get out of the back of these vans, all handcuffed together, and were forced into the immigration center. NICE. So then Carlos meets me and we get pics done, then head into the center, wait for a little bit, and in this time I discovered the whole gay population of Macao Island, which was about 4 guys. they were all sitting their jabberin in their languange then all the sudden they burst out in a beyonce-esque dance. Feroche. So then I got fingerprinter for lord knows what reason and headed back to the Venetien. Saw the show again, then came home. Oh I've also informed that Typhoon season is coming up and there are sometimes where you are informed "not to go outside." which, I wont lie, scared the shit out of me. I've taken a few pics here and there, but I really need to take more picsssss. None of my pics have striked me as being very interesting so far.... They will come! I need to get a cell phone tomorrow...

• :D (5/25/09) [View | Hide]

  A little boy came up to me and said "you have fingernails like a woman" (all in french) and I was going to say, well hunny thats because I am one, but didnt cause there was other human being standing around and would for sure give me a bizarre stare. I just said No I dont, and he walked by. I happen to think my nails are fabulous and I love them. fuck you petit quebecois.

• Sleep. (5/12/09) [View | Hide]

  I feel like Im getting some kind of anxiety. I dont know why. I dont want to sleep lately. I feel that when I sleep Im totally alone in the world, which isnt something Im quite fond off. Its really weird. I always feel like I need to get something done, but sometimes the things i need to get done are not the right things that should be getting done, and then I get to a certain point in the night where Im so tired to do ANYTHING. And then I get sick of music, sick of waiting for something, sick of being tired, and I force myself to sleep. Its really bizarre. Also Im worried that my knee is going to get worse. Its fine right now, but I just dont want anything bad to happen. Im doing physio on it a zillion times a day its crazy. Which part of me thinks that thats whats making it worse. Getting treatment is expensive. Shit. Ugh. OKk. Forcing myself to sleep. Goodnight.

• oi (5/4/09) [View | Hide]

  Macau, T minus 5 weeks.

• Thibault. (4/28/09) [View | Hide]

  This bitch stares at me until the cows come home. I've named him Thibault, but actually not really knowing if its a boy or a girl. He always wants to hang out with me. He's very obedient, all I have to do is look him in those big blue eyes and say "get the fuck outta here" and he scampers away. Nini and Thibault almost got in a dual today. Quite amusing. Gah. Macau, Come quicker please. I just watched Lost episodes 1-3 of season one. I'm not impressed yet.

• Pickies! (4/27/09) [View | Hide]

  It was a good weekend. Saturday was SO warm :) Alana, with the beautiful power ring and Sangria, the drink of the godz. At le drague, during the day, which is kinda like being at a haunted house during the day time, kinda strange in a different light. Also old men EVERYWHERE. Hella scammin on me. Not cool. This is Alana's techniques for fooling the coppers. It works, since there aren't many coppers to fool. Drink that wine girrrl I got high and Alana conviced me that there were aliens in there. Which is probably true, since the best place to hige a alien laboratory would be in Limoilou where no one in their right mind would think about going... unless you do circus.

• Dicipline morphs into habit. (4/23/09) [View | Hide]

  I want to start writing more, eventually I would like to start writing about my trip to Macau with pics and stuff. I just started reading "The Creative Habit" by Twyla Tharp, and so far I enjoy it a lot. I suppose I would describe it as a self help book about being creative and aiding the creative process. There are various excercises that supposedly will aid your own creative process. Sounds interesting. I have 6 weeks to read it, which will be a challenge, but I'll get it done. Patrick is the name of my bathtub. I am doing a handstand number in him, and so far it has been going well and on this creation I think I have really broken through demons, with the help of Raphael. He has really taught me to not be afraid of what I am doing, and just go for it and get rid of my insecurities. I feel really bitchy lately, and mainly wish I could just bitch about people on here, but I know that the potential reprocutions could create some unwanted bad karme :/ so I shall refrain. Tomorrow is Friday, then the weekend, which I plan to spend most of it in my apartment, taking refuge and taking advantage of sleep which I am in dire need of. Also, much needed and longed for pleasure. Planning to take more pictures.

• AWWWWW (4/8/09) [View | Hide]

  Ashley wrote this about me, its probably the nicest thing anyone has wrote about me. 10 Reasons I don't want Thomas to leave for China Today at 12:48pm Hi friends! So in trend with all of those silly chain mail write about yourself notes, I decided to make one that lists all the reasons why I don't want our beloved Thomas to go all the way to China where we'll miss him so much. This isn't a protest mind you, I so excied for my best buddy but I just wanted him to know how much he'll be missed and all the silly reasons why. If you feel inclined please list some reasons why Thomas shouldn't leave even if you don't have ten, just show some love. Tag friends, as you wish. TEN REASONS WHY I DON'T WANT THOMAS TO LEAVE FOR CHINA: 1. Who is going to take me home after a night of partying and tuck me into bed, without a thing in return. Oh yes nothing, (he is my main gay after all) 2. How will I ever remember not to stick the knife in the toaster, turn the oven off, or lock the doors. 3. No one to take me on emergency trips to Krispy Kreme. 4. Because I don't have any other friends who can appriciate the guilty pleasure of an eight hour Keeping up with the Kardashians marathon. 5. I will probably never spell anything correctly again. Ever. 6. He might be the only one who can talk me down off the ledge after I have a disater putting on my fake eye lashes. 7. The recycling will probably start backing up out the door because I am in a perpetual mental state of, today garbage day tomorrow recycling. 8. I will no longer have improptu muscal performances of "Hairspray" while I finnish my breakfast. Or while eating everother meal for that matter. 9. I believe I will acctually come to miss thinks like arguing over the lending of channel mascara and the poking at my boobs while giggling "they're just so funny" 10. Most off all I will just miss him a whole lot because I love him so much.

• This is it kid. (4/7/09) [View | Hide]

  Its 6 am. Ew. I woke up 30 minutes ago and cant get back to sleep. Its ok, ill go back to sleep soon, sleep for a few hours than get up and conditioning! YA! haha Today I will sign my contract with Cirque du Soleil. today and thursday I have workshops with this one girl about marketing and working in Circus, which is a REALLY good workshop and we already had one class from here. its so good! I love it, and we dont have do train cause of it! haha. Other then that, Im uber hungry right now, and should try to go back to sleep. <3

• update. (4/6/09) [View | Hide]

  I should probably update more often. Ok So for many who dont know, I was offered a year contract with Cirque du Soleil working on their newest production, ZAiA, in Macau, China (which is a hour ferry ride from Hong Kong). So Im currently in the process of signing the contract, which I should be doing tomorrow and sending it to them, than things should be movin along and ILl be heading to Macau the 8th of June. So I have two more months here in Quebec, the end of the year show is June 4, 5, 6, and 7, than I leave the 8th, starting rehearsals the 10th, than integration into the show the 24th of June. Im so excited. its like a dream. Im really ready to open a new chapter in my life. :) Unfortunately I dont get to go back to Seattle to visit my family before I head out. My parents will be coming to visit me and see the end of the year show here/help me pack haha. But other than that I wont really see anyone for a while, which makes me sad :( Other than that things are great. Handstands are going well but my upperback and neck and shoulders are tired alot.

• (3/30/09) [View | Hide]
• two dreams last night, Both REALLY weird. (3/19/09) [View | Hide]

  Father To see your father in your dream, symbolizes authority and protection. It suggests that you need to be more self-reliant. Consider also your waking relationship with your father and how aspects of his character may be incorporated within yourself. In this dream my father was flying the airplane that I was in, except it was going to crash, but it didnt. It was his fault it was crashing, but also his fault we were saved. Airplane  To dream that an airplane is hijacked, signifies disturbing feelings and past emotions in your unconscious mind. Power To dream that you have power, indicates your growing confidence, high self-esteem and increasing skills. Alternatively, your dream of power may try to compensate for a waking situation in which you were powerless.   So that was briefly dream one, which I dont remember as much But here is number 2. whcih I remember more. City If you dream of a big city, then it suggests that you need to develop closer ties and relationships. You are feeling alienated and alone. Friend To see your childhood friend in your dream, signifies regression into your past where you had no responsibilities and things were much simpler and carefree. You may be wanting to escape the the pressures and stresses of adulthood. Consider the relationship you had with this friend and the lessons that were learned. Alternatively, the childhood friend may be suggesting that you have been acting in a childish manner and you need to start acting like an adult. Airplane Crash To dream that a plane crashes, suggests that you have set overly high and unrealistic goals for yourself. Your goals may be too high and are impossible to realize. You are in danger of having it come crashing down. Alternatively, your lack of confidence, self-defeating attitude and self-doubt toward the goals you have set for yourself is represented by the crashing airplane; you do not believe in your ability to attain those goals. Loss of power and uncertainty in achieving your goals are also signified. Sister To see your sister in your dream, symbolizes some aspect of your relationship with her, whether it one of sibling rivalry, caring, protectiveness, etc. Your sister may draw attention to your family role and sense of belonging. It may also serve to remind you that someone in your waking life has characteristics similar to your sister. Alternatively, your sister may be a metaphor and actually refer to a nun. In this case, she may represent spiritual issues. Party To dream that you are at a party, suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself. If the party is bad, then it indicates that you are unsure of your social skills. Swimming To dream that you are swimming, suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy. Picture To dream that you are taking a picture, suggests that you need to get a good understanding and gain more information on some issue. You need to focus more attention to some situation or relationship. Perhaps you feel that you need to recapture some past moments in a relationship.   This shit is so crazy, these dreams were so vivid in my mind and had alot of meaning, its almost as if some of my dreams I could feel them in me. I remember one of them I was talking to my sister and we saw the plane crashing right in front of us, and she was just like "thomas its ok dont worry about it, other people will deal with it" and the crash was 10ft away from us. There is SO much that I remember. It almost scares me!

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jonnydavid

Comment left on: 11/20/09 10:25 PM no problem. (: i'm a big fan of cirque du soleil, i just bought my mom some tickets to the ovo show that's here in sf for her birthday. how are you doin?

mistah_ian

Comment left on: 11/17/09 10:12 PM you are so much welcome! :)

DavidTerzian

Comment left on: 11/17/09 3:08 PM :D

BeltaineFire

Comment left on: 11/16/09 11:40 PM My pleasure. Keep in touch :)

Tonie

Comment left on: 11/16/09 10:56 AM It's all good :-) How was your weekend? I hope you had a great weekend. I did...

Jacob_josa

Comment left on: 11/16/09 7:04 AM thank you for accepting, your profile is pretty sweet. sounds like you have some interesting things going on.

ultimatum909

Comment left on: 11/15/09 9:12 PM oh really? thats never ANY fun... i had to perform uber sick my last show too...thats cool we have that in common LOL...and the days off thing too ;) HAHA

Jordancaust

Comment left on: 11/15/09 8:48 PM no problem whats up :D

Kryptonite26

Comment left on: 11/15/09 8:29 PM Do you travel a lot?

prestonross

Comment left on: 11/15/09 8:25 PM No problem... The pleasure is mine.. :D -Preston